In the summer of 2024, I quietly marked what would have been the twenty-fifth anniversary of my first marriage. An emotionally and verbally abusive, nearly soul-destroying marriage to a narcissist - which I thought I had to stay in and tried to make work for an entire decade of my youth.
On that anniversary, I spent some time analyzing the many social dynamics that push Indian women into toxic and abusive marriages, and then pressure them to stay. I realized that most if not all of these dynamics and expectations are completely avoidable - IF we have the will to change.
Here are the social root causes I identified. All of these are negative messages we send girls and young women throughout their childhoods and youth. NONE of these are true.
As a caveat, these are based on my personal experience, and not all of these apply to all women in all social and economic strata of Indian society:
1. "Your worth depends on how you look"
This is the original sin. Moms, Dads, Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents - everyone gushes about the fair-skinned little girls with big eyes or other attractive features. Everyone frets about the darker girls, and as early as primary/ elementary school age, they start planning for fairness creams and warn them not to spend time in the sun.
Of course, it only worsens when the girl reaches her pre-teen years. Those years are already awkward but made worse by well-meaning grandmothers, or not-so-well-meaning aunts and family friends (who want their own daughters to be more desirable in the marriage market) commenting on hair that isn't perfectly straight or a figure that isn't that of a model. Usually, older women comment on features in young women that they hate about their own bodies.
2. "Your worth depends on who you marry, and by when"
I belong to Gen X and I am sure many of my contemporaries grew up hearing that if we didn't get married by a certain age we would never get married. The "certain age" was a dependent variable that was a function of your education level, the family's overall attitude towards their girls' life paths, in some cases an astrologer's interpretation of your horoscope, and the norms prescribed by the larger community you belonged to.
In my case that drop-dead age was 25. Somehow, whatever it took, I needed to get married by then because an astrologer had said that Saturn would delay my marriage until the age of (gasp!) 30 if I didn't take advantage of the pre-25 window.
3. "Your value as a woman in the marriage market is inversely proportional to your income and qualifications"
This is a big one. Apparently, the more a man earns the more in-demand he is by prospective brides, but the exact opposite is true for high-achieving women. So when I was completing my Master's degree from a top university in the U.S., and had four attractive job offers, a lot of the men my parents would connect me with as arranged marriage prospects would back away after they looked up the ranking of my school and the average post-graduate starting salary.
4. "You have to stay for the sake of the kid(s)"
At that point, I realized that this man had NO conscience, and didn't mind behaving abusively to me in front of the child. That was what gave me the courage to get away.
5. "Be careful - they'll call you a 'loose woman' now that you're divorced"